"Optimism fucking sucks. "Things are looking up" sucks."
Aww, Jay, that's no way to think of things. Yeah, things are tough as hell sometimes, but what you make of them in the tough times is what really defines you as a person. You've already shown that you're made of stonger stuff than most, and can retain your sense of humor and intelligence even if you're stuggling. Look at some of the people on a certian chat that we both belong to - THEIR tough times seem to have shown that whatever good personality they have is ONLY present when life goes just right for them. But, from what I've seen of YOU, you've grown and learned from hardship. So don't feel too down.
I think that way because, quite frankly, every time ANYTHING has been looking up, and I've felt all optimistic, I've been burned. I should be littrle more than smoldering embers by now. And I just don't learn my lesson. Whenever I'm depressed and cynical and pessimistic, I don't hurt.
Me? Stronger stuff? Nah. I'm just too fucking stubborn to stop. People ask me how I get through all the shit in my life, and I tell them "Just keep going". I'm sure you've seen that post in response to the someone you're talking about. I'm too stubborn to stop. Doesn't necessarily make me strong. Just obnoxious.
Retain my intelligence? Intelligence isn't something that's easy to lose. Sense of humour? Most of that is sarcasm - which goes hand in hand with cynicism and being a curmudgeon. Besides, I have a responsibility to my friends and others who need me to put them first - and if that necessitates putting on a facade, so be it. I've had plenty of practice.
Fact: When my friends can tell I'm depressed, I'm SEVERELY depressed. When I'm only Majorly Depressed or less, nobody ever knows it.
Grown? Maybe. In some ways. I grew up too fast... meh.
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Aww, Jay, that's no way to think of things. Yeah, things are tough as hell sometimes, but what you make of them in the tough times is what really defines you as a person. You've already shown that you're made of stonger stuff than most, and can retain your sense of humor and intelligence even if you're stuggling. Look at some of the people on a certian chat that we both belong to - THEIR tough times seem to have shown that whatever good personality they have is ONLY present when life goes just right for them. But, from what I've seen of YOU, you've grown and learned from hardship. So don't feel too down.
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Me? Stronger stuff? Nah. I'm just too fucking stubborn to stop. People ask me how I get through all the shit in my life, and I tell them "Just keep going". I'm sure you've seen that post in response to the someone you're talking about. I'm too stubborn to stop. Doesn't necessarily make me strong. Just obnoxious.
Retain my intelligence? Intelligence isn't something that's easy to lose. Sense of humour? Most of that is sarcasm - which goes hand in hand with cynicism and being a curmudgeon. Besides, I have a responsibility to my friends and others who need me to put them first - and if that necessitates putting on a facade, so be it. I've had plenty of practice.
Fact: When my friends can tell I'm depressed, I'm SEVERELY depressed. When I'm only Majorly Depressed or less, nobody ever knows it.
Grown? Maybe. In some ways. I grew up too fast... meh.
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Not true. XP We already know that you're depressed 99.999999% of the time.
*SNUGGLES* Love ya, sweetheart.