Meh. It just seems that I'm fated to never have visitors. You cancelled, Erin and Elise cancelled, Summer cancelled.
And no, I don't hold your cancelling against you. School and Crew comes first, always. Just as I don't hold anyone else cancelling against them either. They have reasons, and who am I to argue them?
Blah. I give up. I just give up. Why do I do this to myself?
Optimism fucking sucks. "Things are looking up" sucks.
Being bored, lonely, depressed, poor and a single parent really fucking sucks, because there's jack fucking shit all I can do about any of it. Anything worth doing outside of the house either costs money I don't have, or doesn't work having the kid, or both.
Next thing I know, Steph's gonna tell me that she's NOT coming back to BC this fall like she said she was. Knowing me, it's gonna happen. Just watch.
God, I must be annoying the fuck out of all of you. I'll shut up and leave everyone alone now.
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Date: 2004-05-16 10:56 pm (UTC)You cancelled, Erin and Elise cancelled, Summer cancelled.
And no, I don't hold your cancelling against you. School and Crew comes first, always. Just as I don't hold anyone else cancelling against them either. They have reasons, and who am I to argue them?
Blah. I give up. I just give up. Why do I do this to myself?
Optimism fucking sucks. "Things are looking up" sucks.
Being bored, lonely, depressed, poor and a single parent really fucking sucks, because there's jack fucking shit all I can do about any of it. Anything worth doing outside of the house either costs money I don't have, or doesn't work having the kid, or both.
Next thing I know, Steph's gonna tell me that she's NOT coming back to BC this fall like she said she was. Knowing me, it's gonna happen. Just watch.
God, I must be annoying the fuck out of all of you. I'll shut up and leave everyone alone now.